ユリコ・タイガー: (🇮🇹comment↓) It's not enough, but just a step towards feeling better.
Someone noticed it and wrote to me, "Did you lose weight?!"
Others wanted to see what they wanted: "ah, now you're undressing?! You've been making porn?" and various insults...
But I'm proud of these little advances because I've never achieved them.
I've always been good at hiding my defects but I was terribly uncomfortable with myself (not that I'm not now, but certainly less than before!).
I fought against fever/cold and very demoralizing moments... but I have to say a huge "thank you" to my staff and to my friends who supported me making me start to get involved.
Even now I don't like to do gym and I don't have an excellent body but I feel much better with myself and this is the important thing.
I should never even have allowed myself to gain weight... (because of work I mean)
But last year it wasn't the best and I had this "dark" period that knocked me down a bit.
I'd like to tell you something personal:
The first time I made my debut on playboy (2014 first and last article at the time) I cried in the dressing room because I felt HUGE compared to the other models.
Some producers / managers (the first I met in my career) called me "Buta" (pig) and made fun of me because I was more curvy than the others.
I had an old relationship that didn't make me accept my body but all this stress made me do nothing but gain weight... so I simply hid the thing...but the fact of staying still or eating too much also becomes a psychological and physical problem.
The fact of not having strength has started to worry me and now I try to do the minimum necessary to maintain a good weight with periods of more intensive diet/loosening.
I've always done swimming as a child and for this reason I have two huge shoulders and a "big" chest compared to the others. I did several sports and loved to eat, thanks to my muscle mass I could become like Chun Li... So I know, perfectly, that I will never be thin enough for the Japanese but:
I don't care.
I'm not adapting to them but to what my body requires.
I take care of myself without losing my head "because others say so-". Love yourself, more than anything else